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There are many things about being in this world that make me feel good - connection, beauty, gratitude
All of them are really made from love
This page is offering up some things I have made for you to share. Offering them up for you to use them to make your heart sing.
I would love if you would use them. If you share them please acknowledge where you found them.
Thank you x
All of them are really made from love
This page is offering up some things I have made for you to share. Offering them up for you to use them to make your heart sing.
I would love if you would use them. If you share them please acknowledge where you found them.
Thank you x
Novena for suffering
July 17.
The other week I woke and dream maker gave me one word, Novena. I had to look it up as I don’t come from a Catholic tradition but have become fond of and have used the practise since then.
Some novenas are 9 days of prayer reciting the same prayer, some are different prayers for 9 days.
I wanted to come up with a novena for suffering to help myself and anyone else who is having a shit time.
This comes with such love.
1 May I know just what it is that is happening to me.
May I be crystal clear in the seeing where fault lies (if in fact it lands anywhere at all), where harm has been done and where repair is not only possible but more importantly, advisable. May my mind, heart, soul, body and spirit be aligned in wisdom around the harm. May I see, hear, feel, sense, and understand clearly. May I have the wisdom and skill to look from more vantage points than just my own. May I trust myself implicitly and turn up in my own life worthy of that trust. And on the days when nothing makes sense or feels fair or even worth opening my eyes for may I know that this shall pass. May I know that any meanness that arises in me is just the hurt parts trying to protect themselves and may I be kind to them, even if that means forgoing the stingy pleasure of talking crap or fantasising mishaps on others (no matter how much it seems like they deserve it).
2 May I know how to get through this.
May the necessary time of laying on the floor and panting to catch my breath be available to me and may I use it without shame. May I know when to speak and when to hold my tongue and when to poke it out and at whom. May I have a storehouse of resources and may I use them liberally, wisely and in good order. May I be surrounded by love as I make my way. May all that I need come to me in abundance and may I have the wisdom to use it. May I trust my inner wisdom if I can’t see. May any advice I receive be wise and clean, may it be advice I ask for and may it be completely trustworthy and valid for me and may I be completely free to ditch it if it serves me. May I have the wisdom and the self-discipline to stop worrying at it like a hole in the tooth when I am not able to act. If I am able to act, may I have the guts to do so. May I have the grace to keep blame to a minimum and self-respect at 100%. May I give myself permission to not be good at this and to use liberal swearing when necessary.
3. May I know when is the time to grieve and when is the time to stand, when is the time to rest and when is the time to kick some arse.
And may I have the courage to act when it is time. May I know when it is time to turn my heart, mind, soul, spirit and body from this harm. My I have the patience necessary to wait for the platitudes of “it’s all good” “it all happens for a reason” to deflate like soggy farts in the presence of those whose own fear makes it seem like a good idea to deliver them. May what I need come to me in right time and may I have the wisdom to wait out its flourishing and not dig up the seed “just to see”.
4. May I know who to receive succour from and who to avoid during this suffering.
May this wisdom stretch to all the helpers available to me, in flesh and in memory, animate and inanimate, in this reality and the next. May those who stand by me in my time of suffering be steadfast and well-resourced and strong in the knowledge that I will be there for them when needed. May those whom it’s best I don’t see be safe and sound and kept busy in other directions. May I not have to explain myself for any of this more than is absolutely necessary. May I receive rich and reliable care and kindness from myself.
5.May I know why I am carrying this suffering.
May this understanding, which is necessary to set me up for not making the same mistake again, come through clearly and cleanly, and may it help me to understand the warning signs, the patterns and the brokenness that got me here. May this wisdom bring me healing so I am in a shape from now on in that no longer fits this pattern. May I have learnt my lesson thoroughly and may no one else from my lineage have to undergo the same learning. If there are gifts to be gained from this suffering may I learn them quickly and cleanly and use them wisely in my future. May this why be liberally applied as “why don’t I try something new?” when the time is right. May I remember that history is littered with martyrs and doesn’t need any more cluttering up the joint. My why is for me alone.
6.May I know where I am headed and always keep this in my sights.
May the multiplicity of choices here never be like quicksand and may the way ahead out of this swampland be increasingly well lit with every step I take. May I be clear and may I be open to the signs that develop as I grow. May I be alive to all that teaches me and open to the best path that is calling me on. May I have the courage to change direction when necessary and the stamina to walk in the steep bits. May I see the signs that are meant for me even if the signs for everyone else point in another direction and may I have the wisdom to take my path. If my legs wobble may I have the sense to rest and nourish myself to walk on strongly. May I have the wisdom to know that the next right step can look like icecream and a movie or lying on my back in the grass when there are more “important” things to do.
7. May I know my own capacity and see it grow day by day.
When I began I was only able to hold a tiny amount. Now I see, through this suffering that I am capable of more than I thought before. May I understand that this capacity sets me up to be more available to my purpose, more able to hold and deliver love. May I see that this capacity sets me up to be an abundant source of goodness and that the world is better off with the version of me that has learned and grown. May I always give from a sense of fullness and never drain my own cup to the dregs.
8. May I be nourished as I make my way.
May I have the eyes to see the things that are available to me as fuel – nature, beauty, humour, synchronicity, warmth, creativity, wonder, - may all of these essential nutrients be available to me and may I have the good sense to gobble them up. May I keep an eye out at all times for these things and actively invite them into my life. May I know with everything in me that I deserve to have fuel – these things after all, are 100% renewable and self -sustaining. May I know what is right fuel and right timing for me, by listening to and trusting myself. May my tank be full.
9. May I have the capacity to forgive.
May the forgiveness soften my heart and not my brain so that I can be prepared for unscrupulous or unwise people and be open and free to give and receive from those who deserve my loving attention. May I never resort to clenched smiles and gritted “yes of course”’s may forgiveness only come when I am ready and may a tiny bit of willingness be enough to start it growing. May I find my way to that tiny bit of willingness. May my forgiveness be clean and may it grow unattended like a wild meadow so that the beauty of it is available to me when I happen to look there. May the charge around the harm be dissipated so that I know true forgiveness which keeps me from further harm. May that forgiveness never be like a weapon of self-righteousness no matter how tempting that might be, rather may it be like an invisible cloak that keeps me warm and protected.
The other week I woke and dream maker gave me one word, Novena. I had to look it up as I don’t come from a Catholic tradition but have become fond of and have used the practise since then.
Some novenas are 9 days of prayer reciting the same prayer, some are different prayers for 9 days.
I wanted to come up with a novena for suffering to help myself and anyone else who is having a shit time.
This comes with such love.
1 May I know just what it is that is happening to me.
May I be crystal clear in the seeing where fault lies (if in fact it lands anywhere at all), where harm has been done and where repair is not only possible but more importantly, advisable. May my mind, heart, soul, body and spirit be aligned in wisdom around the harm. May I see, hear, feel, sense, and understand clearly. May I have the wisdom and skill to look from more vantage points than just my own. May I trust myself implicitly and turn up in my own life worthy of that trust. And on the days when nothing makes sense or feels fair or even worth opening my eyes for may I know that this shall pass. May I know that any meanness that arises in me is just the hurt parts trying to protect themselves and may I be kind to them, even if that means forgoing the stingy pleasure of talking crap or fantasising mishaps on others (no matter how much it seems like they deserve it).
2 May I know how to get through this.
May the necessary time of laying on the floor and panting to catch my breath be available to me and may I use it without shame. May I know when to speak and when to hold my tongue and when to poke it out and at whom. May I have a storehouse of resources and may I use them liberally, wisely and in good order. May I be surrounded by love as I make my way. May all that I need come to me in abundance and may I have the wisdom to use it. May I trust my inner wisdom if I can’t see. May any advice I receive be wise and clean, may it be advice I ask for and may it be completely trustworthy and valid for me and may I be completely free to ditch it if it serves me. May I have the wisdom and the self-discipline to stop worrying at it like a hole in the tooth when I am not able to act. If I am able to act, may I have the guts to do so. May I have the grace to keep blame to a minimum and self-respect at 100%. May I give myself permission to not be good at this and to use liberal swearing when necessary.
3. May I know when is the time to grieve and when is the time to stand, when is the time to rest and when is the time to kick some arse.
And may I have the courage to act when it is time. May I know when it is time to turn my heart, mind, soul, spirit and body from this harm. My I have the patience necessary to wait for the platitudes of “it’s all good” “it all happens for a reason” to deflate like soggy farts in the presence of those whose own fear makes it seem like a good idea to deliver them. May what I need come to me in right time and may I have the wisdom to wait out its flourishing and not dig up the seed “just to see”.
4. May I know who to receive succour from and who to avoid during this suffering.
May this wisdom stretch to all the helpers available to me, in flesh and in memory, animate and inanimate, in this reality and the next. May those who stand by me in my time of suffering be steadfast and well-resourced and strong in the knowledge that I will be there for them when needed. May those whom it’s best I don’t see be safe and sound and kept busy in other directions. May I not have to explain myself for any of this more than is absolutely necessary. May I receive rich and reliable care and kindness from myself.
5.May I know why I am carrying this suffering.
May this understanding, which is necessary to set me up for not making the same mistake again, come through clearly and cleanly, and may it help me to understand the warning signs, the patterns and the brokenness that got me here. May this wisdom bring me healing so I am in a shape from now on in that no longer fits this pattern. May I have learnt my lesson thoroughly and may no one else from my lineage have to undergo the same learning. If there are gifts to be gained from this suffering may I learn them quickly and cleanly and use them wisely in my future. May this why be liberally applied as “why don’t I try something new?” when the time is right. May I remember that history is littered with martyrs and doesn’t need any more cluttering up the joint. My why is for me alone.
6.May I know where I am headed and always keep this in my sights.
May the multiplicity of choices here never be like quicksand and may the way ahead out of this swampland be increasingly well lit with every step I take. May I be clear and may I be open to the signs that develop as I grow. May I be alive to all that teaches me and open to the best path that is calling me on. May I have the courage to change direction when necessary and the stamina to walk in the steep bits. May I see the signs that are meant for me even if the signs for everyone else point in another direction and may I have the wisdom to take my path. If my legs wobble may I have the sense to rest and nourish myself to walk on strongly. May I have the wisdom to know that the next right step can look like icecream and a movie or lying on my back in the grass when there are more “important” things to do.
7. May I know my own capacity and see it grow day by day.
When I began I was only able to hold a tiny amount. Now I see, through this suffering that I am capable of more than I thought before. May I understand that this capacity sets me up to be more available to my purpose, more able to hold and deliver love. May I see that this capacity sets me up to be an abundant source of goodness and that the world is better off with the version of me that has learned and grown. May I always give from a sense of fullness and never drain my own cup to the dregs.
8. May I be nourished as I make my way.
May I have the eyes to see the things that are available to me as fuel – nature, beauty, humour, synchronicity, warmth, creativity, wonder, - may all of these essential nutrients be available to me and may I have the good sense to gobble them up. May I keep an eye out at all times for these things and actively invite them into my life. May I know with everything in me that I deserve to have fuel – these things after all, are 100% renewable and self -sustaining. May I know what is right fuel and right timing for me, by listening to and trusting myself. May my tank be full.
9. May I have the capacity to forgive.
May the forgiveness soften my heart and not my brain so that I can be prepared for unscrupulous or unwise people and be open and free to give and receive from those who deserve my loving attention. May I never resort to clenched smiles and gritted “yes of course”’s may forgiveness only come when I am ready and may a tiny bit of willingness be enough to start it growing. May I find my way to that tiny bit of willingness. May my forgiveness be clean and may it grow unattended like a wild meadow so that the beauty of it is available to me when I happen to look there. May the charge around the harm be dissipated so that I know true forgiveness which keeps me from further harm. May that forgiveness never be like a weapon of self-righteousness no matter how tempting that might be, rather may it be like an invisible cloak that keeps me warm and protected.
Prayer practise
we don't have to be qualified to pray and this simple prayer practise helps me to see prayers come to life, and tend to prayer over time and space in a way that is strengthening and wholemaking to me. This was shared as part of my contribution to Praying True an online facebook community that links spiritual practise with creativity and care for the earth
A talk about heartfull living
My friend Lisa Hoffman from Dandelion Seeds and Dreams runs an annual Heartful Living course. Here is my contribution to the 2015 round.
the password is cicadas
the password is cicadas
a visualisation for when things get hard
When things get hard my usual M.O. was to be hard on myself, my negative self talk and old complexes would rise up to paralyze me. This audio is one i made for just those times, to hear the voice of The Mother, the voice of unconditional love, always there for you, on your side. Take the 10 or so minutes to nestle in and be held in love... make sure your environment is warm and comforting and then click the link below to play. (if the link is not showing up blame mercury retrograde and click here_
an interview on creativity
in June 2015 i did an interview with Bebe Butler for her Painted Guru series.
You can listen in here |
a little guided imagery for heart strengthening |
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